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2003-07-24 10:45 p.m. |
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tomorrow i'm applying for a job that i'm pretty sure i want. i mean, i know i want to get back to working, so that i have money to pay bills and indulge my boy. but i'm just pretty sure i want to work at this particular place. i think it would be alot of fun and i know it'd be something i'm good at. i don't even know what i'm getting at. but the idea of being locked into a schedule that involves things other than meals and nap time is a bit abhorrent. also tomorrow, i'm taking some things to the exboyfriend. odds and ends that were left at the apartment when he left. i don't know if he'll want it all but i don't know what else to do with it and i haven't the space to store it forever. i think it'll be a fun day- getting out and driving around with anthony and seeing steve again. i don't quite remember exactly when i saw him last. i think it was in january but it might have been before new year's. i dunno. time flies when you're laid off and bored. the boy worries too much about me, i think. i don't mind that he's concerned and that he pays attention to how i'm acting. but i hate that he feels like he has to fix something when there's nothing wrong and he's already so good to me. i don't think i tell him often enough how much i appreciate him and how happy he's always made me. communication has never been my strong point and i don't suppose it ever will be. i was working on something last night and i could have finished it today but i completely forgot about it. bah. my brain is dead meat in my skull. i spent the last few hours talking to Andy. i think i bored him into submission. or at least scared him off to the superhero message boards. either way, well done me! i'm collecting all the invader zim episodes that i can get my grubby little digital paws on. going to burn them to CD for the brother and the afore mentioned Andy. i keep thinking of great ideas for making money from home and then i realize how much time and effort i would have to invest and i REALLY want to do them and then i realize how much money i DON'T have and i'm not so sure. i miss late nights at Denny's. i miss even more having people to meet for dinner and smoking and being stupid. i miss leaving sweet-n-low pentagrams on tables and bending the forks and spoons to take them home to nicole's. i miss being sleepy and laughing and complaining about work and hearing everyone else'e horror stories. reason number 53658 why i should not have a child any time soon and why i should be glad to invest the $37 a month to not have one. |
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